Post by drugenduced on Nov 12, 2004 2:38:59 GMT
no one has posted in this one for a long time so i figured i would.
*sigh*
i still think about kurt every once in a while. while i was at ah some of the staff that were hired were close to my age so we'd talk about music and all this stuff. a couple of them liked nirvana...it was their favorite band or whatever...all of them would say "how do you think he died?" or "do you think he's dead?"
i really don't like thinking about that. i've always tried to push it away. i hate it when people say that cuz usually when they do...i've just gotten to the point where i could push it out of my head.
do you know what? a while back when i was all suicidal and stuff...i wrote out what i wanted to happen to my stuff. i left my journals and stuff to my brother john cuz he doesn't understand me, my teddy bear to my sister, and all my kurt cobain/nirvana stuff to emma. i even put your address to mail it to. it was kinda crazy when i read that.
i've been going through my old journals...i was really angry. geez. i was such an angry person. maybe someday i'll post some of the things i wrote.
a lot of my old journals had pictures of kurt throughout it or lyrics from nirvana or something.
i wanna get back into how i used to dress...grunge-y. but i can't. i'm going to the alternative school where shane (the head dude) makes people get haircuts and stuff...you gotta dress decent.
someday i will.
i'm glad i'm not as into kurt as i was before. i think that was one thing that kept me depressed. i'm not blaming there...i just think that might have been a factor. his music still means a lot to mean. a lot. when i hear it i just...it's like taking a pain pill. it makes it better and i can sometimes forget where i am and how i feel.
but i don't know...i just figured i'd post in this section since no one has for a while.
sorry...i kinda went on a ramble.
*sigh*
i still think about kurt every once in a while. while i was at ah some of the staff that were hired were close to my age so we'd talk about music and all this stuff. a couple of them liked nirvana...it was their favorite band or whatever...all of them would say "how do you think he died?" or "do you think he's dead?"
i really don't like thinking about that. i've always tried to push it away. i hate it when people say that cuz usually when they do...i've just gotten to the point where i could push it out of my head.
do you know what? a while back when i was all suicidal and stuff...i wrote out what i wanted to happen to my stuff. i left my journals and stuff to my brother john cuz he doesn't understand me, my teddy bear to my sister, and all my kurt cobain/nirvana stuff to emma. i even put your address to mail it to. it was kinda crazy when i read that.
i've been going through my old journals...i was really angry. geez. i was such an angry person. maybe someday i'll post some of the things i wrote.
a lot of my old journals had pictures of kurt throughout it or lyrics from nirvana or something.
i wanna get back into how i used to dress...grunge-y. but i can't. i'm going to the alternative school where shane (the head dude) makes people get haircuts and stuff...you gotta dress decent.
someday i will.
i'm glad i'm not as into kurt as i was before. i think that was one thing that kept me depressed. i'm not blaming there...i just think that might have been a factor. his music still means a lot to mean. a lot. when i hear it i just...it's like taking a pain pill. it makes it better and i can sometimes forget where i am and how i feel.
but i don't know...i just figured i'd post in this section since no one has for a while.
sorry...i kinda went on a ramble.