-a pessimistic optimist(ic)-

[hairsprayqueen]

-a pessimistic optimist(ic)-

there was a time when i felt beautiful
and i was free
my dreams were kept in crystal castles
to share with everyone else
in time i grew and learned
not everyone cared for my hurt
they didnt even show concern
and to think i was never warned ..
suddenly i couldnt get any rest
i had changed, i had become stressed


today i feel pittiful
and resort to weed
my dreams were broken by lifes constant hassless
and i lost myself
time pierced through my skin til it burned
for mistakes i belived were when they werent
in time i would be torned
wishing i was never born
so who would of guessed ..
that child once so happy would end up so depressed

hope of finding that so longed love
just wasnt enough
seems i needed more
then i wasnt worthy enough for what i adored
those dreams that kept me alive
through times i shouldnt of survived
were on the edge to be lost
and i would do anything, no matter the cost
cuz i was so afraid
until i stood still as i watched them fade

[hairsprayqueen]

this is weak compared to what i normally do, but its felt
i used two rhymes i ve used before but yea, its cuz i have some kind of writing block and its not as easy to write for me as usually or as when am inspired. but yea that came out ..kinda forced and its more intellectual than spontanius or inspiring and you can see it from the rhyme squeme, its not your usual
the paragraphs above rhyme with the ones below, thats how i made it. i thought it would be a clever idea.
please r&r